hi...

i'm not sure if i have ever mentioned about one big reason of me going on a trip in last december or not...i guess i might have mentioned that somehow in my own style 'need a break to heal the broken'...anyway, something has triggerred me to be direct here.

my heart was broken, the cold weather and snow were so depressing and i just felt like leaving and didn't wanna be here for any second longer...so off i went on jet planes and cried my night away

the night before my departure, i was packing and at the same time i sent Mr. tlc a msg...just to say goodbye...[well..we had lunch together that afternoon, and a big warm hugs from him..]..by 4 o'clock, he replied my mail, and told me that he just got up from a long nap and he didn't understand my msg and so on...u know..sweet candy canes were flooding in his msg....i didn't reply.

i spent a big number of hours both while waiting at the airports and when flying across the atlantic ocean. those hours were spent on crying, thinking, sleeping and shopping.

anyway, the first night that i arrived ireland, i got another msg from him...and just right after i read that msg...i realized that..i was completely over him. [whoever got your heart broken...fly across atlantic! it works!!!]

so i didn't give him any contact during the trip...even though i promised to send him postcards...but i didn't...

at some point during the trip...i falled into a 'big crush at first sight' affair yeah, i had a cute date and that was nice.

i got back and kept myself disappeared from mr. tlc...and there he went,...out of the blue...his long msg showed up in my mailbox last hour ago...and now i don't know what to do...

(i named him 'tlc' coz it's his initials and we use that name btw two of us.)

so mr. tlc just sent me an email..out of the blue...asked me questions for my disappearance, the puppy chew my mobilephone antenna, my sister got me a pair of my favorite jeans that were one size smaller than my size and my friend couldn't find my only x'mas wish for me 'the fcuk pullover that will make me look like a mechanic...the one that i'll surely look very cute when wearing them'...and my pc went berserk and several evidences made me decided to have symantec check out for virus and worms. turned out...neither virus nor worms were found after 4 hours of system scanning

you see it wasn't such a great day,...i am upset from several reasons. although thsoe reasons seem to be understandable...i know that it wasn't so bad, i know that i am very much luckier than many ppl..i know i know i know..i know it all...but can i be a little gal and know nothing for once?... can i?..... :'(

and i went shopping, actually just to get a b-day present for my sister...but i also got myself a white shoulder bag, and two identical long-sleeves white t-shirts. i love white, my roommates always surprised of how many white shirts i have...lol...i also feel that guys look much better when they wear white shirt....white shirt with clean look always capture my eyes...

bad day i had... :'(

sis, we are adult right , we need not sweet candy canes

be strong as you always are !

thanks...babybarbiebangkok... you nake me feel much better already!

: )

lol...i usually deposit some extra kisses into a guy in white shirt's account [if he shows up with white shirt at the first date] ...just in case i'll ever really date him....you too athaigirl?