Due to some people around me been asking me same question "Are you drunk?" most of the time lately. I starting to feel not good.. I love drinking.. YES.. I wont deny but ... it annoyed me somehow.. Coz Im not that drunk every nite like 24/7 ... (( only on weekend actually LOL ))

I kinda worried coz someone seem to be seriously hate me being drunk and I dont want him to think that Im always drunk and might play around too.. haha good combine but hell I always back to sleep in my bed or stay at da vodka pool or with this someone who is the one.. but if you're not believe me.. I cant help but try plz. Whatever.. I just feel annoyed by that but I still love drinking...

I been talking to my cheeky cowboy last nite.. we were talking about something serious... and somehow I told him a top secret of mine which only few people knew about that.. I wish I couldnt tell him so... how can I take my words back? He seems freaked out coz of that.. dammit! .. Dont hate me my dear! We always have our own reason to do anything..

I have done double mistake this week... first .. about a crazy deal I wanna make with someone..it may made me look like Im just fun-loving girl ... fun fun fun .. but I have heart, I do need love and care.. I just try to be closer but may start at wrong point. Silly me.. haha .. And another mistake was about I told the thing that I could just forget it forever.. but I already said .. and its make me feel blank.. numb... down again..

I dont know what I want to do, I dont want to be here but Im here, I really need to be relax.. I need to go to the beach.. It may help me feel better.. maybe..maybe.. I hope so.. I hate when Im being ill like this ..... I just had some ice-cream coz I cough a lot .. wahaha .. will tell you later if it work for this treat..

Once again that Im lost in this beautiful world .. I think Im dying.

..Come Safe Me Please..

Oiy, you are the woman with many secrets! :-) ..and you make us all so curious :-)

If you really feel something about this Mr.Cheeky, and he wants u to stop drinking, then why not do it? Hmmm..perhaps I make it sound easy...me, i'm not easy, and I also have my secrets hahaha :-)

Seriously, u need a good talk with some experienced person (like me:-)), someone who can tell u what's up and what's down...

I think it will be better... friday 13th might bring me some luck ..

Poul... I have no secret.. but this thing its not favourable to remember.. its my nightmare.. and no one here know.. till last nite.. Mr.Cheeky doesnt have problem with me being drunk .. and my the one ( who hate me being drunk) and a cheeky cowbow are not the same person.. LOL and I driink only on weekend for now.. due to working.. I dont wanna pissed my boss..

Dave.. Its not about you.. I always tell the world that I love drinking.. and its really not about those pics.. dont worry .. its not like that but its coz of myself.. and my the one didnt see those pic for sure but he have seen by himself about this drunken baby.. everytime I met him I always drunk.. so its not about those pics for sure... he saw me drunk more than u have seen but maybe never see me passed out on the floor.. wahaha ..

before I drink on weekday.. but due to working.. I cant anymore.. so da vodka pool is prepared for hard hard drunk this weekend ... but hell Im still ill ..

^__^ Nong Oiy cheer up na ja.

I forgot about u being ill! So when u are ill, everything looks dark - remember this. U have no resistance against bad thoughts, and they crawl in everywhere. Hope u get well soon - drink camomile tea :-)

cheer up khaaaaaa i think u know yourself the best just be good and honest to yourself ..be care your health then you will feel better from all things.. try to be relax..drunk is not bad sometimes at least when u lose your heart it healp u to forget to hurt in that moment ..maybe just short time but it can help u to get sleep

Poul... I dunno really.. maybe problem about my heart .. wahaha .. camomile tea? what about long island ice tea? LOL

May... tomorrow is friday.. weekend is waiting... but due to cough a lot.. should i still drink? or maybe alcohol will kill all bacteria or whatever in my throat .. and i will not cough anymore..

Hey I think its a thing called "PMS" .. wahaha

rite Im outta here need to sleep and be fresh.. then i will be ready for working..

hehe i dont think i need to repeat myself and tell u again wot i told u last nite

ahhh hell i'll say it again...

maybe u do project an image of "drunken baby" on tf, i know this is not the real version of u, but if u show this side then people will judge u that way i guess...

g'nite oiy, dont stay up too late and get well soon!

Nice walk on the beach works wonders, take a drink with ya if ya like !!!

don't think too much laey naa' ... :'D cheer you up na!

The only way you can keep a secret is if you never tell anyone. So that said we all have things we would rather not remember. Things we did that were embaressing, frustrating, stupid, foolish, that exposed our own weaknesses and failures. That is part of being human. You can't take back anything you've done in the past and you shouldn't want to, even the foolish things, because they are part of what makes you the unique person you are.

In the end, anyone who loves you, who cares about you, who values you as a friend and a person and a companion, is going to be honest and admit that they've made foolish choices and done silly painful things as well.

As far as drinking is concerned. Drinking seriously on the weekends is something a lot of people do. If you can control it and keep it isollated to the weekends and really aren't getting drunk during the week. Then you have it under control. It's when you sneak a bit here and there, put on a drunk at home alone, that you have to worry.

So if you're being honest, there's that word again, then you're probably just induling in the excesses of youth. And if you can't do that when your youthful... well there's not much point in being young.

Tony

i think you might do well to remind your cowboy that TF is different from real life, and only certain things show up on TF... and that 90 percent of what "happens" on TF doesnt happen at all but is just hype, joking etc. and the stuff that does happen is blown out of proportion...

the vamp... yeah .. I agreed .. LOL but well maybe coz they both are close to me so they always ask so.. oh my dear.. seem u think Im changed somehow.. well I always tell u I love drinking but its may be a bit too much lately.. whats real version of me btw? sweet, lovely? haha

MeL.. Not yet ... i still ill so try to find sth else than drinking to do..

EagLe.. wah I miss the beach will go as soon as I can..

Rosy.. too much for u and too much for me, I think its a big different..

Tallfellow.. too long, cant be bother to try to understand.. but thx ..

ZBH.. Jeff im not sure if u talking about those pics.. well well it doesnt matter about the pic.. if u mean so.. and both cowbow and esp* that the one might know me better than most TFers know me.. they doesnt into TF that much tho'

actually they might concerned that I dealing with my health & body system too hard.. I take its as they are just love me too much and doesnt want me to drink all the time. I wish they know I love 'em too.. I really slow down about drinking my big bro, and my the one...

FB2 ... i like gullivers loads.. nice atmostphere (no not about those girls) .. and cheap beers.. will ring ya if i can go.. but i couldnt hang around those smoker.. im ill ... *cough cough*

its not really secret but.. its not the thing i should say ... not worth to say.. sometime if ur body is pain.. it will be better soon but if ur mind, ur heart it may take forever to heal that painful...

they just love me and worry about me... so for god sake I wont drink that much this weekend..

secrets kill relationships, so do things left unsaid. Be honest with your man even when it hurts. Sucks,I know, but if you are honest in the beginning he will trust you forever.

The drinking thing is up to you. You seem to have it under control. just don't let it control you.

but then again who the f@#k am I to give advice on drinking. I'm naked, with a sombrero on, drinking taquila. (just kidding)

LOL Matty .... its not even a relationship... but somehow its kinda stuck before start.. well well just hope he doesnt hate me yet after knew that ****.. about drinking is fine if i go to work with normal mood not like a zombie..

and whenever i met up my the one. he just doubt if he is just someone i have fun with as i always drop by when I drunk... haha sound like sentence that a girl should say.. well he is not someone but the one.. how i can make him believe me?

**a cheeky cowboy and the one are not same guy** sorry to confused u all .. I been talking about 2 guys ... a cheeky cowboy is a friend who i chat with online but the one is a friend i hang out with here.

sounds like a relationship I had recently. ( No I wasn't the one that was always drunk!) Sometimes Sh&@t happens and the relationship never takes off. F@#k it all. thats the story of my life.

i wanna be serious but dunno how to start, where to go, what to do.. so it just like have fun.. is it same as yours?

Sometimes you just gotta be brave and say what you feel. the hardest part of a relationship is the fear of rejection ( the guy or girl u like/love doesn't feel the same.) If your afraid and he's afraid then it will stay like it is.

U have to find the reason your relationship is stuck.

No it your problem is different than mine was. I got my heart stomped on. SUCK!

don't worry I'm all better now.

already said.. even been told.. if i want something, be clear, dont be shy... but I still not be clear enough .. LOL hehe sober babyoiy outta here ... Friday 13th bring me some luck please..

LOL BaCon.. see ya on cam tonite.. maybe *wink* I wont drink much .. maybe 2 glasses of magarita which can heal my illness somehow.. *cough cough*