You know that feeling when you're 90 - 100% up to the top of a roller coaster, voices get muffled out, your mind goes a million miles per hour without any complete thoughts except "oh sh*t," and you just know that you have to hold on and get ready for the ride? That's how I feel just about every second of every day now.

I've been reading "What to Expect When You're Expecting (the first year)", which kind of helps. At least I have all the necessities ready for the first few weeks, and it's been helping me to get into "baby mode" as much as possible. Jeab and I are probably finished with choosing an English and a Thai name for her...though that is subject to change within the next 6 weeks...Yes, we're only 6 weeks away...oh sh*t.

I'm seeing more of my parents in me as each day passes. I see my Mom's fun and caring side, and my father's practical and giving side come out more and more often. I have all these plans for my daughter, but I know I won't accomplish everything that I've thought of. I should probably be writing down all my plans for her as I'm sure the time will fly while she grows up. I want to teach her Spanish and English and have Jeab teach her Thai. I want her to love learning math as well. I remember my father used to give us math problems to do on napkins while we were out at dinner...for some reason that was really fun. It turned into me handing him a napkin with a glance at the pen in his shirt pocket to get a few division problems jotted down.

Now I try to look into my daughter's future with me and Jeab and at times I want everything to be exactly the same as my childhood, though I know that that is impossible. I have to admit that I am nervous...scared almost. I know it's normal to feel this way, and that nature will take over to do its thing. I'm getting to the top of this rollercoaster, and I'm trying to push forward to get into the amazing ride ahead. Until then, I just bite my nails and try to complete a thought.

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get as much sleep as possible in next 6 weeks mate, and drink lots of beer, watch lots of sports and anything else you normally do in your spare time. Because 'leisure time' is now an endangered species on Planet Kawada...

Just think of all the bad influences (like me) she'll have in her life. Hahahaha

9 little feet?? She will run like hell!!

Its scary as hell right now, but dont worry - that will pass...its very difficult to maintain that amount of nervous energy on 5 minute bites of sleep three or four times a night, so you hve nothing to be scared about.

When I found out that my (now ex) wife was expecting, it was a shock, but you get used to it, when my first daughter was born, I was scared and had no idea what to do, when my son was born I was away working and I got back the next day...he was wonderful too...just as I had felt for the first...when my youngest was born, five years ago in July, I was away as well, but I got back to see her, and she was wonderful, and scary (especially considering that there is a 7 year gap between my son and the little one), but they all grow up every day, in every way, and they are all cute, wonderful, and scary... it will never wear off...the moment of free-fall when your stomach lifts and your heart flutters as you hit that first terrifying slope...but its worth every second when you look in your baby's eyes that first time that recognition registers...and your child really sees you. It is unimaginable...

The key is, do the best you can.

Nice one mate.

exciting!!!! hehe

Thanks...we are getting really excited.

Grezzzy, thanks a million for the insight. Looking ahead to future babies is difficult right now, but I'm glad to hear that each time is as amazing as the first.

It won't really matter in 100 years.. lighten up.

The math part is good... without exception all of the world's self-made billionaires are math whizzes.