BOOKS! what da ya think it would be!

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i wonder if books have genders or not...

they must have...coz some of them make me cry...

and i was crying early this evening till mr. tlc lent his hands and helped me out. he turned my crying face to smiling.. : D

3 things that always get me to tears, family issues, books and movies, and this stupid techno-frustration! which mr. tlc found it's silly to cry for the third reason...

he said "this technology stuff is so stupid you shouldn?t let it get to you. I?d be crying all the time if it got to me like that!"

well...lets imagine it this way...

if you want to build a boat without knowing the nature of water...how can you do that?...you need to have good knowledge based on what you are doing, otherwise...a good mentor is what you must have...then look back at myself...i want to create a good multimedia application but i know nothing about actionscripts...it's impossible to use only the fundamental features that the software provides me....so, i need to learn..that's the only way out...then..i am struggling with 'learning' the actionscript and computer language coz i am not intelligent and lack of self-disciplin...all the craps i've ever said here came out from me intuitively..and the lack of disciplin occurred in me becoz i've never actually learn or study anything since i was little..

this is what i called 'the balance of living things'

you learned, you played, you studied hard..to gained knowledge...you unconsgiously gained self-disciplin...

me...i didn't learn..coz i seemed to understand the content before the teacher ever taught...so i didn't gain disciplin...

life is not fair but equal...

i am so disappointed at myself...

but hey!..i'm getting abck to battle with creating that darn struggling application which i call 'fragments of me' again...

will show it to you after i get it done.

cheers!

Finally Jane you're hinting at the truth. Just get it all into the open while you've stopped lying, and before you stop taking your meds again for about the 40th time.

WAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i am sooooooooo IMPRESSED!!!!

Ling!...you are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's what I'm talking about, from my testimonial to Jane:

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Well I'm sick of all the lies and the posing. Jane WAS a C+ undergraduate sociology student at U of Regina, had an affair with a prof which resulted in a baby boy, dropped out and ended up marrying a classmate who went on to manage a Tim Horton's coffee and donut shop. (Timmy Ho's as some Canadians like to call it is one of the big national donut shop chains.) She works behind the counter at the donut shop. The shop is near to the U of R campus so plenty of students hang out there, and she picks up bits and pieces of intellectual nonsense that she works in to her journal entries and posts. Sometimes she even has a student come up with a complete entry for her, which she rewrites in her own terrible Eng. to make it sound authentic. She is not an art school graduate. She is not in new media studies. She doesn't know her postmodernism from her structuralism. "Analysing" an episode of some cartoon means she sat in front of the TV for 6 hours Saturday morning in her housecoat doing nothing but eating chips, drinking coke and watching cartoons. She also did a little bit of jail time and is now on parole (which is the real reason she can't travel, not maxed out credit cards). The reason: she and allegedly her husband had a little con game going with customers investing in a franchise of a rib restaurant chain they claimed they were about to buy into. The chain is called Tony Roma's, but they had no intention ever of investing and just bilked the others out of a total of C$56,000. Her husband managed to avoid conviction (which is why I said "allegedly" for him) but she got 18 months, and after being a good prisoner was released to parole after serving one third of her sentence. She was the real key to the con game, because she is a pathological liar. It is practically impossible to detect that she's lying in the usual ways people can notice another lying, because she's so good at it and in fact is incapable of realizing she's doing anything wrong. (That's part of her psychological condition.) I mean, she lies with practically every breath she takes. If you ask her a simple question like, "How was the weather today?" she is as likely to tell you that it poured rain or that the day was filled with brilliant sunshine as she is to tell you that actually the day was dull and grey. Watch out for this girl! Note to atomic_chickypunk: when Jane says she'll take you "clubbing" in Regina, that means you'll be on your hands and knees throwing up into a pile of sawdust between a table of farmhands and a table of bikers after drinking your 12th Labatt's Blue while ZZ Top, Willie Nelson and Black Sabbath blast on the bar's sound system.

wahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I LOOOOOOOOVE IT!

thank you, ling!

this is one of the very best thing that has ever happened to me in TFs...

G R E A T ! ! !

red wine...on me!

OMG.... its the first laugh of the day i am having.. LOL LOL...

Now i dont know you anymore Jane.... I thought we are good friends... ha ha ha...

Ling... thats quite a masterpiece.... ;P

Ahhh AF....someone called Miyamoto Mushashi spoke of this before..."All things with no teacher." ...I guess an open mind and alot of heart will always be a powerful tool in any endeavor we undertake.

Well there is some truth when they say Experience is one helluva teacher..the only prob is the Exams comes first and the lessons later : P

Once again darling "this is one of the very best thing that has ever happened to me in TFs..." I thought it was me......ok.........red pill or the blue pill?????........no Black Sabath please.......

arai arai??? nong paul!....arai sad thjii sut!!!!!

jeremy....i am almost convinced....not yet not yet!!!

I took the opposite approach, discipline with out knowledge (20 years in law enforcement). Oh by the way, as far as tears goes, don't for get "pepper spray" works wonders. Awesome journal and very awesome story by ling.

Thank you, white monkey. But you have only scratched the surface. There is more to Jane?s exploits?

After being released on parole, it wasn?t long before Jane?or at least that?s what we?ll call her for now as the authorities are still trying to verify her real identity?was contemplating further scams. She dyed her hair orange and convinced a Canadian legal magistrate that she was the long lost heir to the Kilkenny Irish Beer fortune. It was then with this money that she was able to bribe CIA officials into purging all their records of her past wrongdoings and form a cutting edge techno music group called. ?Janie and the Kittycat? (as the name ?Josie and the Pussycats? was already taken?and her lead guitarist happens to be named Kitty). But the band was actual a front for a subversive revolutionary group determined to bring about the liberation Quebec and return the land to what she believes are the rightful owners: France. Fortunately for all loyal Canadian citizens the plot was foiled by a contingent of Eskimo warriors disguised as baby fur seals.

It is at this point that she went in to hiding and my sources lost touch with her. Can anyone take the story from here?

wahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

:"( someone just kicked me out from flying in boeing 777...and it doesn't show who that person is in teh stat..

MAI YOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!

:"(

Wow, just when you think you know someone!!!!!!!!

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