and my blood is bubbling inside my chest!

dear TFs...

i am supposed to be working on one proposal that i have to submit to one famous show in LA.

at the same time i should get myself ready for a presentation tomorrow, but i couldn't care less for this...

anyhow, since i have to write a proposal, i need to dig up some info from one of my conf, paper that i summited to MIT and got turned down...oh my buddha....look what i've found...

i have found that my editor and my prof have made BIG BIG BIG mistakes in editing my paper...

2 objectives have gone missing.

some paragraphs have gone also missing and that make the paper incoherent.

when they sent the paper back to me, they told me,

"pls send it as is, do not touch or make any changes!"

and that was the last minute of the deadline, which means i had to send it right away after i added contact info, author, and stuff that were needed.

who to blame?...in not being accepted to my dream conference...

yes, me...coz i trust others, coz i've been a careless person who don't have gut for tiny details and don't go anal about references...

that's why i couldn't make it to that conference this year...

but i am sad and mad for something that i have nothing to do about it now...

i know that i was competing with other 440 genius around the world for that conference...but i am also believe that my paper, originally was not a bad one...

i am so sad....i am so sad...

i feel so stupid..

atomic...

Man really sorry to hear that P'Jane. Its really sad when you can't trust other people especially those who are supposed to help you out. In the end I guess we have to realise that the only people we can depend on is ourselves. There's other opportunities that will arise. This is just a small stumbling block and I know you'll bounce back!

thank you indman and nong paul...

i forgot to mention that both my editor and my prof have been very generous to me.

i am certain that it's only mistakes and no one intentionally created it...

but...well...i guess i have nothing left to say...

Am sorry to hear that, learn from that and move on... there is no word i can say to make you feel better but i am sure you will be ok soon. You are a strong woman and know what to do..am here if you feel like talking........

Sorry to hear about your discovery. Why would they do such a thing? Will you ask them? Yet please don't let the past interfer with your future projects. As they (who are they) everything happens for a reason. Good luck!

i know the feeling my dear. i have a similar story, but what good would it do to talk about it... just know that the truth will surface in the end and you will be recognized for your intelligence.

You have learned from this and that's the only thing needed I think. You do really good work Pixie, you should be proud of yourself, I am.

i tell myself...

forget about it, it doesn;t mean a thing!

it doesn't mean anything...if threrwas no mistake, it didn't mean that i'd get accepted...anyhow, it's left the ending openly unidentified.

therefore, if i'm good, i'll archive something at some points.

and if i don't that still doesn't mean that i am not good...

round circle...

cant help feeling embarassed when think of those reviewers reading my paper tho...really embarassing

Stay strong and keep your head up sis. No need to feel embarassed, we all make mistakes. The best thing we can do is learn from them as to not repeat them. Life is a learning experience.

So sorry for you to hear about that paper . Noone suppose to be blam na kha , especially you/yourself . Mistake can always happend . Can't you send the orginal one later with the confirmation note from your prof that the 1st one was missed some important info ?.

Cheer up na kha!