Hopefully this journal wouldnt be deleted like my other 3 previous journals and get myself another red card hehe

ive been asked by loadsa ppl why the hell i could have that 2 yellow cards. oh well for ppl who havent checked my profile for ages would notice that ive got 2.. yep not only one! lol ok im not trying to make it funny but u know i just got myself in trouble and almost got kicked off of TF, another online community i love.

the story began last thursday when i got into (another) online fight with my ex (u know who) again. i got pissed of course (with a bit of my stupidity). i didnt know what i thought at that time (obviously ive already calmed down) but i did post a super duper nasty but true journal to go against him.

i just wanted to post what i have always wanted to say..about how i feel and how i ve been treating so shitty.

however, he saw the journal and responsed with loadsa "evil" comments. one of them is about posting all of my personal detail such as my phone no at home and work, my mobile phone no, all of my email addresses and surely u dont wanna miss my home and work addresses. but u know what he got himself a first yellowcard by posting it and my journal has RIP accordingly.

with my ignorance, yeah if u know me that well, and a tricky thought, i REPOSTED the journal again. i , nevertheless, reposted it by giving a link to the same journal in blog-city. oh well i didnt know that its illegal here!! so thats how i got myself into my first yellowcard. damnit!! ok thats not enough when the evil has already entered into my head, i 'll re-update my profile by inputting everything i said saying like "since the mods didnt allow me to post a journal i'd love to post it here blah blah blah" plus i added my vote button (with a wrong link tho!). Then i kinda got a final warning for the mod to remove everything off of my profile WITHIN 1 hour! or else they would give me another RED card before i'd get banned for 1 week. surely i got another yellowcard which will be expired on 10-oct yeah today!

The only reason why i got yellowcard is that i named the full name of that person i went against with. the rule here is no name mentioning. how the hell on earth i would know that!! so ok ppl next time if u wanna go against someone, better not to mention anyone name or be too specified! "that guy" also put "may is a *****" (yes i am but so what?) on his profile so yeah he got himself another yellowcard too.

i learnt a lot after a few day. ive been told by no of ppl to move on. I DID actually. i just dont wanna my private love life to be exploded on here again. well we'll see. i dont regret for what i have done so far. everybody get hurt i know. im sorry about that. the truth is we have now faced the truth about "something". but pls forgive me if i have overreacted. i cant help it sometimes. everybody makes a mistake u know (ok i would have already made a lot of mistakes but im still begging you to forgive me).

no worries about me. im now satisfied really.

and by the way, my profile is back to normal again so of course u can still vote for me lol

thx for reading. i appreciate that.

May ♥

ps. my testimonials is now full! who say we can have up to 300?! now ive got 200 active testimonials and 3 pending!!

Sometimes commitee should get yellow card too.I always see the mistake such as Beckham in match Eng Vs Aus !! got 2 yellow card in 2 mins...lol Wot the ******* blind of commitee or some of mods here ?? "

Anyway !! No forgiveness come from ppl who can kick ppl out by cool bloody --" And I dont think u should get frogiveness coz u never done the mistakes >,<

I'm lucky to be able to read this journal *grin* uhmm life goes on and welcome back (hugs)

i have jing jing.....u met him last week remember?

MuffiN SweetHeart,

You take good care of yourself.

Remember always..... Silence is the BEST.

Big Warm sQueeZes for YOU XxxxxoOOOXXxx

P' Riya

i wont be seeing this tue as hes now on the holiday in samui with his mom...gotta be next month i guess...surely u can wait ... i'll be going to join him this weekend tho! hehe

Bite your tongue! And go bite a Mod!

wb p may

im not blaming anyone Connor =) no worries. i just want to let you know that we all know to see forming rules like what we should or shouldnt on this website. i believe that most of all may have overlooked when signing up or perhaps have already forgotten about it. so it would be nice if admin or any mods post it somewhere where we can read , respect and follow all the rules...

WOWter, ur so sweet again! hope ur sweetie doesnt mind me saying this cos its true! hehe

again: we talked about this. how on earth would you know not to post his name when you attack him? there's a rule against PERSONAL ATTACKS. i'ts not rocket science hon.

Can't believe someone who appears as sweet and nice as you can get 2 yellow cards.

May, I am shocked...I looked at you as a role model around here. lol!

Glad that u r ok now, my dear friend.

princeofcali, no one is perfect! lol im just being me but hey im still nice and sweet.......really =)

glad to be back

pee jeff well noted..

i agree with you may about "don't get mad, get even" but it sounds like you got mad and even at the same time.

so what is the "sin bin" like?

ugh, some people never grow up.

still bitchin n' whinin about this....grow up!