Before i start this journal, i wanna say i don't like to talk about my love life, my heart or my feeling much.... but this time i don't know why i feel so bad.

Most ppl who know me in person always think i am the person who have no feelings. They think i can't feel angry, disappointed, hurt, love, like, happy, and sad. ****!!! i'm a human i can feel everything as u can... but i just don't like to say.

Cuz i don't know how to express my feeling. Damn it!!

I care the person i love, but i'm afraid to show it.

I can feel sad and can cry... but i always cry when i'm alone....so no one can see. I don't want ppl know that i'm weak.

i can get angry, but i always keep it inside if i shout to ppl face that means i'm super angry. sometimes i feel like 1000 bombs in me

I wanna make friends but i'm afraid to say hello, i dunno what to talk with u guys, i'm too shy to do that.

etc.

Ppl always see i'm a boring person. If close friends can see only that i always do the funny thing. (can make them laugh). So, many ppl hurt my feeling but they never realize they what they do.

**** i dunno what i'm writing on here. May be just let myself know that i'm still a HUMAN.

Cry when you wanna cry!!!!! and I cry like 1-2 times a week. lol P1 don't be sad na ka. B cool!!!!!