Grrrrrrr and Grrrrrrrrr .... :[

I just dont know what to blame myself. Today I just lost my Parker pen which my aunt gave me.. I went to post office and as I always get my pen with me and I knew that I was going to use it so I took it with me. I wore kind of short pants - normal dress like for stay in... I was thinking not to bring it as I didnt take my handbag with me. My pen possibly to drop out at anytime from my pants if I sit somewhere. But I finally grabbed my parker - cell fone - wallet - letter and a book of Ronnie with me. I carried them all by my 2 hands and put pen and cell in my pants' pocket.

After ran out from post office I catch a mini-bus to Tesco Lotus (2 stopped - can walk about 10 mins if dare to burn).. yeah green mini-bus with crazy driver. After I sat down for a sec.. I checked out if my pen still with me or not... but I didnt find it so I left the bus and ran back to the post office ... No, I aint see any piece of my parker there... I dont think I'll forgot it there *imagine I put them (wallet - Ronnie's book - pen - letter) all on the table and writting down post address and put pen back in my pants pocket and grabbed other things later* ... So Im sure it might dropped out when I sat on the bus... but too late ... grrrrrr I didnt check around my seat before left coz at the moment I found out my pen gone, the bus was stopped too so I just jumped off while some dudes were looking and wondering whats wrong with me.

Actually it was duo pack of a pen and a pencil.. My aunt saw them on sales -lolz- so she bought for me (( how lovely, she put many things in one box and gave it to me - like anytime she found something for me there she just bought and collect them in that box .. waited till the day she came back here and gave me that magic box)) I lost a pencil after I used it first time for my final exam when I was in college.. I was upset for awhile but not as much as today. I even bought 2 (ballpen) refills 2 days ago. It was my mistake to bring it with me today and I feel bad that I cant keep most things my beloved auntie gave me .. (( yeah almost everything I have got in my life are from her ))

I wanted to go to Swensense at Tesco to feel the coolness from air-con and read Ronnie's biography...coz it was frigging hot when I got up. I was so upset and not in a mood to do anything for awhile.. kept complaining myself (as usual) And it has got me thinking about another thing I stupid lost it.. It was a swiss knife.. I forgot to pack it in my suitcase, I kept it in my handbag and its not allowed to bring into airplane.. and I was late already so no time to run to post it back to home. I had to dropped it in a big box with those shitty screwdriver - those stainless steel stuff.. with my tears! Fuking hell ...mine it was a VICTORINOX knife ... I was speechless, I cant forget it even after 13 hours flight.I didnt think about it anymore untill today... how silly!

I was sitting at the bus stop for 1 hour and 20 minutes.. Just I was hoping that I maybe can catch that mini-bus as I think I might recognize the bus boy coz he was wearing a gap and not too many mini-busses so its easy to recognize but after 1 hour ..... I didnt see any that wear gap... So I decided to go home ........ *sigh* I gotta buy new one soon else I wont stop to blame myself.. if you see me using a *Pinky Hello Kitty pen* for now... just know that I aint buy new parker yet... I hate pen that not work well - not smooth etc. It never happen with this parker so I love it!!!!! Thats why I always got my pen with me and Im going to buy the same. Lucky me, my aunt didnt buy expensive brand or gold one with diamond etc.. else I cant afford.. and she never buy anything for me twice.

There are something more that my aunt gave me and I cant keep 'em somehow - I just mentioned about it last nite tho'... all its b'coz of I aint use my brain and some sense much enough yet. You know now why I call myself baby(Oiy)?

Again ... silly you babyoiy!!!

I am so sorry for your loss. If I knew you, I would gladly buy you a new parker set (both pen and pencil). It probably is on that mini-bus going around and around in Bangkok, missing the warmth of your pockets.

damn long.... silly and babble too much ..... oh man!

I mean myself ,,, not dude Melasinsh for comment above....

that mini-bus going in short line.. not so long ... else I cant be bother sit and wait at bus stop ...hehe ... want my post address to send me new set? he he ... its kinda cheap but not sure if I can find the same or not..

Robbo... MontBlanc .... with a lil diamond ... and I will never use it .. lolz

Ghee... too long to wait.. im in rush...

tell me about mont blancs.... lost a miesterstuck a year ago and lost my brand spakin' new signum last week. well at least i've still got the box. me and pens don't mix!

drink the vodka u will forget ... :[

Awww. sowwy about ur pen...... Whens your birthday again?!?!?! hehe ..

winny... a dozen of vodka ... it cost a lot more than a set of parker... i bah!

nation... I wondering are u an english? coz I dont get u. I just always lost with english speak english.. but i love it!!! hehe.. i still got the box of parker too.

the vamp.. I dont feel the need of vodka much lately .. >.< poor me..

Meg.. 16 Dec.. u gonna come to my b-day party? or should we go to pattaya to have party?

Zed.. nice of u to offering to keep my parker safe... (from me)

Things like this happens to all of us. Can I offer u another pen? I got one (blue) which says BIC on it...OK? LOL

...I still remember when I lost ALL my money + passport + visa...in Russia! Believe me, that was frightening!

up to you, Oiy, Its your B-day after-all

Poul..... that worse - sorry to hear that... but i upset coz I neva keep what my aunt gave me.

Meg... hehe ... we will see ... )

"the vamp.. I dont feel the need of vodka much lately .. >.< poor me.."

...your sick rite? *_*

due to find out whats wrong with me .... thats so weird...

Or maybe next time, should get a handbag instead of new pen.. So you wont loose anything out of ur pockets... ^o^//

hehe ... i should learn to use public pen at post office .... I got only pinky hello kitty pen now ... haha it might suit you barbie girl Meggy...

sounds like one of those days , I hope tomorrow is better for U ............

) always hope & wait for the better things to come to my life...