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Hi all. I am a new member here. Got the adress from a thai friend of mine. Here's my story... All men have certains females they like better than others. Some like blondes, some like brunettes, although blondes are not common in thai i think For as long as i can remember i was allways attracted to asian girls. My first g/f when i was about 8 years old. I gave her some candy or so, and played at school with her, never kissed or whatever, i was way too young for that. The point is that i allways wanted an asian girl. The problem is that i live my life here in Holland. Thank god there's internet so i can get in touch with other people in different countries. And i allways enjoyed talking to ladies from Thailand. I had a very lovely girl in thailand. I've known her for 1,5 years by now and we chatted allmost everyday. She and I both have a webcam so we knew what we looked like, and could see eachother smile and laught. We just had a great time all of the time. We never had cybersex or whatever other kinky stuff. Just serious talks about life and other things that mattered. Like i said, we talked for 1,5 years and knew eachother pretty good. A few times she send me a letter in which she told me that she had been hurt in the past by men who decieved her, just wanted her for sex, or had other g/f as well in the same time. She also told me she had a son. She wrote in her letters that she wanted me to know all of her, and that she felt guilty if she didn't tell me all these personal things. So i trusted her more and more and really started to love her. I thought that would be impossible at first cause i never met her in real, but i guess i was wrong. We started making plans of meeting together. First she wanted to come to holland, but then i changed my mind and thought 'the right thing to do' was to go to thailand to meet her instead of letting her come to me. I told her i wanted to meet her parents and friends and family, see her life. All of that suddenly changed as she told me she got a problem at work and wanted to quit her job. She asked me for help to get her here to holland. I wanted that very much. So we planned to get her here to meet me. She could stay here with me for 6 months, then i would go back to thailand with her for 6 months, and then we would decide what to do. Stay in Thailand, or go back to holland together. As you see, it all got quite serious. Until that day, last friday 23rd of January. I called her on January 21st as well. I call her about once or twice every week on the phone. I called 21 to ask how she was doing and if she started to get nervous allready cause she was coming her ein march FInally to meet me. She was. She told me she missed me so much, and ifnally got a chance to really be with me, and that she loved me. the conversation came to an end, and i called her again friday the 23rd....... That friday, at 12:45 i called her and got a friend of her on the phone. At least, i think it's a friend. It was a girl. I asked her i wanted to speak to xxxxxxx. I don't want to tell her name in here. The girl whispered softly that I should call back in 30 minutes, after the ceremony.... Ceremony? What ceremony i asked? She laughed a little. "She is getting married now" she told me.... I will never ever forget those 2 seconds. My stomach turned upside down, my heart turned inside out. I could't speak anymore. We hung up the phone, and i called back 2 minutes later, i said i really needed to talk to her. Not possible, so i called back again after 30 minutes Then i got her on the phone. Hello xxxxxxxx ? It's me i said. "Oh, I can't talk right now, i am busy. Can i call you back?" And she disconnected the phone. All i can say is that never in my life i cried for so long. I have spoken to some friends of her which i knew, and they told me some things about her. I slowly am finding out the truth now about her, but still love her. My brain says i can never trust her again, but my heart will take her back in a second. I have not spoken to her since, she is on her honeymoon right now.... What i am affraid of is that this girl i had, she had as far as i know now 3 active boyfriends, and a few online. It seems that her first choice, a guy from germany has been to her a few times. But he found out all these things aobut her, so he decided not to continue. In the same time, she allready was in contact with me. In June last year she met another man from holland online. She told him the same stories she told me, and 'fooled' him too. He however was more persistent and came to thai at once. He is the guy she married last friday. I just found out she returns from her honeymoon january 31st. She has been to the south of thailand. Her husband returns home to the netherlands after the honeymoon so she is alone again. A friend of her told me she will never be sure with a man. Even with the one she got married to now. And she believes she still wants to meet me when she comes to holland here in march. I will try to call her again on monday if she is not online before that time. I hope she will talk to me and explain this situation. My heart is still bleeding and you all probably will say that i have to leave her and go on with my life. I can't do that just like that. I love her too much, and i feel in my heart she loves me too, but since love is blind, that may be false. What must i do? I never had a fair chance. i miss her so much.... I have posted this also in another topic but it was kind of OFFTOPIC so i made a new post of it. I really would like your advise or experience in this situation Please take care you all... [Edited on 30/1/2004 by Gollum]